Today (or should I say yesterday) marks the start of our pol-ite season! I have to admit I don't feel the same as before in every competition prior to the game. I'm quite not ready, I'd say.
To sum up my first game in this season, I was on the verge of breaking down when I played my first quarter. Yes, I almost broke down. I was given the chance to start the game and all I did was fucked it up. Every single minute, second of 15minutes. My performance was really screwed, beyond words. I couldn't reflect any plus points at the end of the day, not even the fundamentals. That was how bad it was, and how extremely disappointed I felt and also to the team. Likea pathetic lost soul on court. The most upsetting thing isn't anything new but what I've learnt in my secondary school days and nothing applied. ZERO. Worse game ever in my netball history, most probably.
I thought my tears could hold till I left but maybe I wasn't strong enough. And that's was how my emotions took control of my mind and affected me greatly. Oh well, deadly mistakes are needed to improve oneself isn't it? Time to get back on track and focus to my utmost. I hope it isn't too late, at least.
Thank you for the lovely people around who were constantly encouraging and cheering me on. I wasn't expecting that, really. Greatly appreciated much :') Special thanks to bian for picking me up and having my most fav fries for dinz to cheer my lousy mood. Love y'all ♥♥♥
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